It's been a long while.....

yeah, yeah......

I will post some things later and add more photos.....

My Heart

I can’t apologize for my heart,
and all that it feels inside.
My feelings are all of who I am,
and impossible to hide.

To feel so deeply for others,
is a gift that was given to me.
A gift that shouldn’t be given back,
but accepted as how l am meant to be.

If this gift is not shared with other people,
it will have no meaning at all.
It was given to me to love others,
and to be there for them, if they should ever fall.

My heart is all that l have to offer,
as that is what makes me who l am.
My love is there if you wish to take it,
and l hope you feel that you can.

Love to all...

My poor little yellow car.....

Ok- so most people know that I have a bright YELLOW car....

(see image above)

Well, my little car was in a minor accident yesterday on my way home from work. An older gentleman decided that he wanted to be me, and decided to just push me right out of the way. It was a good thing that I was paying attention, because if I wasn't, then I could have been seriously hurt. Of course when I see that the man is coming straight towards me, and that he IS NOT going to stop coming at me, all I could think of was 'ohh...geez...this is going to hurt!' I sped up hoping that if I did he would miss me altogether, but he didn't and clipped my drivers side bumper/ fender, and ruined my rim.

The good news is that no one was hurt, even though he was really shook up... I was worried thast when i got out to look at it that all the yellow plastic was going to be crumpled... ahh..but much to my relief, it wasn't that bad!

If the car was paid for, then I probably wouldn't even worry about it, but since I still owe for it, and technically it belongs to the Bank of Oklahoma...It is going for a visit to FTI collision on Monday morning. Hopefully they can get an estimate, and fix it all in one day, because I just can't live without a car. Well, I guess I could, but I don't want to.....

So that was my interesting news for yesterday, Novemeber the 11th, 2008: Veteran's Day & Autumn's birthday.

A poem that I dedicated to my Father...

My Father today is not the same man that raised me and my brother, he is not the same man who was married to my mother for almost 30 years. He is not the well respected member of his community, and not the man who has lived his life like he expected his children to do.

The man who raised me is no more....
I hadn't seen my Dad is almost 2 years, when I seen him about a week ago, it saddened my heart. He did not look like my Dad, my children did not recognize 'Papa' I'm sure that it hurt him that the boys wouldn't talk to him. Maybe he felt a small tinge of the pain that he has put us all through.

I have this poem, and I have posted it before, on my myspace page, but I feel the need to post it again. We are healing a little more each day....and we are going on...without him.

It hurts, yes....... but we have to go on.

To my Father

We'll Go on.

We'll go on without you.

Without you we'll go on.

Though something beautiful
inside us all has turned to stone.
We'll go on without you.

Without you.

Through the years of pain
and raw bewilderment
and brutal, angry tears.

We'll go on without you.

Without you we will heal,
Though love may labor
in the heart
and joy the loss conceal.

We'll go on without you,
Without you we we will grow,
together as a family,
that you will never know.

We'll go
on
without
you.

Without you life goes on,
But neither hope nor happiness...
Undoes what you have done.

THE END OF THAT.

I miss MY DAD......

Something to make you think....

Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine.

Yes, I am guilty......

I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible....and eat more dessert!

How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched 'Jeopardy' on television?

Because Americans cram so much into their lives, we tend to schedule our headaches. We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all the conditions are perfect!

We'll go back and visit so-and-so when we get (name your child here) potty-trained.

We'll entertain when we replace the living-room carpet.

We'll go on a second honeymoon when we get the kids out of college.

I'll further my education, later.

Life has a way of accelerating as we get older. The days get shorter, and the list of promises to ourselves gets longer. One morning, we awaken, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of 'I'm going to,' 'I plan on,' and 'Someday, when things are settled down a bit.'

Now...go on and have a nice day. Do something you WANT to......not something on your SHOULD DO list.

If you knew you were going to die soon, and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? Why are you waiting?

Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round or listened to the rain lapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask ' How are you?' Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head?

Ever told your child, 'We'll do it tomorrow.' And in your haste, not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch? Let a good friendship die? Just call to say 'Hi?'

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift....Thrown away.....

Life is not a race.

Take it slower.

Hear the music before the song is over.

Life may not be the party we hoped for... but while we are here we might as well dance!

You know I dance...... do 'The Sophie!!'

Hope it made you think. (And not about my awful dancing!!)

Today is another day

Today is one of those days where I am feeling pretty good. I have started this blog, and I have already fallen behind. I was going to try and keep it daily, and I now see that, a realistic goal that is not. So, I am going to try for the once or twice a week thing.
Over the weekend I had a family reunion. It was ok, my Dad was there. He tried to talk to my boys, but they did not remember him, or didn't feel comfortable around him or something. My Dad didn't really have much to say to me or my brother, it was almost like he was trying to start a conversation, but it just led off into the unknown.
When I first seen him, my first reaction was to run up and give him a big hug, I really wanted to, but something just stopped me. I think that I am just not ready for that yet. That is a big step, especially for the things that we have been through.
Instead I just gathered my items from the car, and carried them into the lofge, where the reunion was being held. I was able to see cousins, and family that I haven't seen for quite some time. i had a really good time, and my boys really enjoyed themselves for the most part.
I have a poem that I dedicated to my Dad. I will have to find it and post it on here. it has some of how I feel in it. That is all that i can bring myself to write this morning. I am feeling really good today, and if I start thinking about the past, I may have a mood change.

Some good news is that my Friends Angie and Peter have had their second child. He is a chunky healthy baby boy, he weighed 7 pounds 10 ounces, was 21.5 inches long, and will be blessed with the name of Tyler Peter Jeppsen. He's a cutie! Angie and her Sister Sherilee moved to Tahlequah when we were younger, they have been dear friends of mine since the day I met them. Their family was like my second family. We always have good times when we get to visit with one another. Which doesn't happen as often as it should, but that's what happens when you become grown-ups!

All is well in Sophie-land today......

The second day of my Blogging World.....

Well, I have gone and fixed up the page, and have added some pretties to it. Hope that it is pleasing to the eyes, for all of you out there who may be reading it.

The weather today is really nice. very fall like. It's a nice temperature, with a slight breeze, and the sun is shining ever so brightly.

Nothing to spectacular has happened thus far today, and for those of you that know me...this is a good thing! I have no Major plans (well, what others call Major plans) for the weekend. I'm hoping to just relax, since my week has been full of adventure and the like...I would really like to sleep in, sit around in my PJs, clean on the house, do some laundry, help Shawn with some of his homework, read Sherman some books, watch a movie with Sam, visit with my Mama and just do nothing.

Wouldn't that be nice. I think I'm gonna try to do just that.

I hope that you all have a spectacular weekend.